i wish ...

hey Mr.bogiEe
i wish .. i really wish i know what i'm doing right know .. i wish i know what i really want in this life .. but the fact is, i really confius .. i don't know whether i can face the reality .. i afraid of it .. it makes me feel worried of what i might face in the future .. my dream is to see the one i love happy .. but i don't know whether i can do it .. i feel like my turn-out just make them more upset .. i feel like i'm really useless .. i can't do anything to change that .. i'm too afraid to lose them .. as you know Mr.bogiEe, i don't have many person went into my life .. i'm not that socialize person .. in fact, i'm just a person that really hard to know someone else that not in my world .. mybe that makes me weird .. i'm way too far from other people .. i can't be part of them .. no matter how hard i try, i just can't .. n mybe that's why i really don't want to lose them in my life .. i only have them .. love ya .. as if this is what i feel right now ...

mybe .. outside  is raining as my heart feel it too .. 


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