my BitterSweet story: January 2011

Friday, January 28

confession ..

hey Mr.bogiEe
would like to make one confession .. i want to confess that i still fall for this person .. no matter how hard i try to forget him, he still stay in my heart .. although he doesn't know that .. yea .. mybe it's a little frustrating or really is .. i can't help it either others .. Mr.Dentist always says to me "why don't you find another person than him ?.. it's no use .. he's not that handsome .." and my answer is always the same .. " i've try .. but i can't .. he has stole my heart before i can do anythinig about it .." huh .. tough huh .. it is ..

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i wish ...

hey Mr.bogiEe
i wish .. i really wish i know what i'm doing right know .. i wish i know what i really want in this life .. but the fact is, i really confius .. i don't know whether i can face the reality .. i afraid of it .. it makes me feel worried of what i might face in the future .. my dream is to see the one i love happy .. but i don't know whether i can do it .. i feel like my turn-out just make them more upset .. i feel like i'm really useless .. i can't do anything to change that .. i'm too afraid to lose them .. as you know Mr.bogiEe, i don't have many person went into my life .. i'm not that socialize person .. in fact, i'm just a person that really hard to know someone else that not in my world .. mybe that makes me weird .. i'm way too far from other people .. i can't be part of them .. no matter how hard i try, i just can't .. n mybe that's why i really don't want to lose them in my life .. i only have them .. love ya .. as if this is what i feel right now ...

mybe .. outside is raining as my heart feel it too ..

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Thursday, January 27

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hey Mr.bogiEe
bruk tdik nya ada eply mcec kita .. kita asa mcm nya mlas jk mok lyan kita .. ylah spa x umas d mcec tiap ari wlopn hnya ucpan slamat mlm .. kita tnyak nya kita tok ngaconya nya jk .. kakya nya mdh x, slalu nya trus tdo pas prep jdi x lyan mcec gk .. jaik nya kita tok .. pkir nk ngtve jk ... x lmak gk cuti taun bru cina .. x tauk la, ada gk ka nya anta brita .. hurmm .. phal la kita jdi cmtok .. snstif glak .. t'lalu glak .. hiyshhh ...

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Wednesday, January 26

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hey Mr.bogiEe
i hate diz .. i really hate diz .. my life now is really miserable .. i even don't know what i suppose to do .. and my head is juz like want to explode .. i want my old self again .. when i stand iin front of the mirror, i said to myself "who's that ?.." i don't know myself .. i'm not like i'm used to .. arghh !! .. living like this just like living for nothing .. i get headache more often now .. uft ! .. i don't know what i gonna do .. i really don't know !! can someone xplain how to live life ??..

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suka suka suka ..

hey Mr.bogiEe
kita mnat glak an lgu tok nektok .. xtauk knak .. cam da smthng nk mlah kita ska dgga lgu tok .. x pnah kita jemu dgga nya ..

banmal song ..

cgek gk, lagu nagging ..

2 igek lgu tok la neman kita tiap arie nektok ..

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Tuesday, January 25

past, present and future ...

hey Mr.bogiEe
this is my past ..

this is my present ..

n i donno what my future will be ..

but i thing i'm really sure, the first dat come is da best then present or future .. think so ..

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unforgetable present ...

hey Mr.bogiEe

tok ckolet nk brik Ms.pogiEe msa mekorg klua wktu bedday ku rieya .. smpei knek tok lom mkn .. x snggup kita mok mkn .. syg asa nk mkn .. smpan jk gk .. ada ceta d sbalik ckolet tok rieya sbenanya,, heheh .. ada la rieya,kita t'hilangkan ckolet tok .. kita mok mkn nya jdi kita crik la tk , xda !.. ngis2 jk kita pusin umah crik nya ..haha .. nsib bait tmu psya .. p x jdi mkn psya .. heheh .. syg ..

dah2 .. smpei ctok jk ceta ckolet tok ..

Mr.Toot

hey Mr.bogiEe
knak la kita bleh ska an Mr.Toot ou ?.. mybe tok jk yg ada lam plak .. "There are many other guys out there. thats what everyone else say .. But there's only one problem .. I dont want any other guy .. I just want him .." nk mdh nya kcak x juak,tnggi pa tah gk .. hahah .. smpat gk nganok ya .. x pat tdo tok .. bia la,alang2 dh pagi .. boh tdo trus jk .. b'blik kpd p'soaln tk .. knk pndei ska an nya ?.. sjak kita knal nya (not officialy), smpei knek tok .. kita mseh xpat lpaknya .. o mybe kita knek dlm proses mlupaknya .. sbab kita knek x kesah an spa nya knek .. x mcm sblom tok .. kita x pat ngganya an greknya .. ng skit atie abis kita .. paloi kita tok ou,, skatinya la ou, ya grek nya .. p prasaan skit atie ng xpat d elak, mkin2 bla kita t'srempak an 'mem' nya .. kita skit atie glak .. x tauk la phal .. pdahal nya bkan nya ada slah an kita .. nsib bait la knek rsa ya da ilang .. kita da x skit atie gk bla ngga mka 'mem' nya ..o mybe xpat d deny yg bla kita dgga nya da break an 'mem' nya (khabr angin) ..
sblom tok kita sbenanya dh plah kputsn yg kita mok mlupaknya .. kita mrh glak an nya bla kita dgga denk kita ceta psal nya .. smpei atie nya plah pmpuan kdak ya .. nya just pura2 grek an besfren 'mem' nya (sblomm nya grek an 'mem') just mok mlah pmpuan nk nya ska ya jles .. childish lu jk olah .. x pkir prasaan org lu jk .. ya x brik nya hak k nyakit atie org len ntuk kpentngan nya .. jaik lu jk .. msa ya la kita plah kputsn mok mlupaknya .. p sminggu psya,, kita mseh juak pkir psal nya .. ng plak otak tok pkei nya jk .. llah da asa drik tok mksa plak otak tok buang nya .. p ntah la .. knek gk mseh coba gk .. mybe kita yg mlah nya jdi mkin cmplicted kot .. ntah .. He may not be the brightest crayon in the box, but he's still my favorite color ..

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denk kita ... hehe

hey Mr.bogiEe
kita mok ceta tok .. kita ada denk .. oleh sbabnya ada ksensitivity nya dkpun so kwn glar nya singa .. so kita syg glak an denk kita , Ms.Lion .. wlo nya a bit snstve,nya bait sbenanya .. nya caring an kita .. nya pn cntek wak org nya .. heheh .. kita mula rpat an nya msa F.4 .. ya sbab kita sma klas n smpei la F.5 .. kita x tauk juak cmnie kita bleh rpat annya .. kdang2 nya plah kita skit jntong .. ylah .. an tndkan nya yg kdang2 mlah kita ssah atie .. msa F.4 , kita an nya ng kra rpat glak .. nya slalu ceta an kita bnda2 nk nya plah .. n kdang2 mntak advice hal relationship nya .. wlopn nya tauk kita tok x pnah ada real 'relationship' .. kita appreciate glak bab nya sudi mok ceta an kita .. p, bla dh msok tngah taun F.5 , kita asa mcm kita jaoh glak dri nya .. smenjk nya 'date' an laki ya,Mr.Bad-temprd .. mybe plek untk d dgga .. nya dh x slalu mcec an kita .. nya lbeh bnyak an laki ya .. jdi kita rsa mcm d pnggir jk .. mybe bab nya d only one org yg kita rpat .. an org len kwn juak p x bpa .. n smenjk nya an laki ya,kita jdi renggang cmya2 .. kita pling x ska bla laki ya an nya klaie .. laki ya bad-temprd .. kita x ska ngga nya pkol denk kita skati jk .. ya ank dra org,nie bleh nya mlah skatinya .. bkannya bini nya ya k kwalnya skati jk .. dh la mrah an hal nk spatutnya k jdi isu .. n sbab laki ya juak kita hmpir2 x kwn gk an Ms.Lion .. mybe Ms.Lion xkan pham pa kita rsa .. p pa yg kita plah sumanya k kbaikn Ms.Lion .. kita pn,mn kt tmpat Ms.Lion bla ada org anok grek kita dpan kita,kita akn mrh juak .. kita tauk .. just,,, x tauk gk kita cmnie kita mok xplain .. n smenjk kjadian ya,kita an Ms.Lion x bpa rpat .. smpei knek .. wlopn cba plah cm besa .. ya just x mcm dlok .. cm ada smethng empty .. kita mn bleh mok kwn an Ms.Lion smpei bla2 .. kita xmok lose Ms.Lion .. nya kwn t'bait pnah kita ada .. stakat tok jk kita pat ceta hal Ms.Lion ..

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